Monday, July 11, 2011

Final Letter: Facing Death

Last letter from death row: Facing death
MONDAY, JULY 11, 2011

Yong Vui Kong
Sabahan Yong Vui Kong, 23, is on death row in Singapore 
for drug trafficking. Malaysiakini is publishing Yong's final 
letters to Yetian, a member of the Save Vui Kong Campaign, 
as he faces death.

"Before I begin, I would like to thank everyone for reading 
this 12th letter. Time passes so quickly that this will be 
my last letter.

I hope that when you finished reading this letter, despite 
whatever that is going to happen to me, you will continue
to support 'We Believe in Second Chances' campaign.

For my final letter, I would like to write about how I feel 
about facing death.

Firstly, I feel that the existence of the death penalty is not for the sake of retribution, 
but rather a way to allow the offender to understand, and fully confront, the mistake 
he has committed.

Take me as example, I am actually grateful that I was caught because 
it allowed me to understand the true meaning and purpose of life, and it 
has allowed me to find strength within myself. I remembered I once 
mentioned about the "me" before I was caught - a person who has never 
truly lived before.

A few days ago, my lawyer, M Ravi, came to visit me. He told me that 
he would send my final appeal to the Singapore's president in a few days. 
That will be my last chance.

On the night before the execution is carried out, many death-row inmates 
will have no opportunity to say goodbye to their families. For most of them, 
they are in no mood to think of anything else other than feeling hurt and 
pain before their final sentence.

For most of these death-row inmates, the moment they are brought out of 
their cell, they will lose control their emotions and they will start to 
break down. No amount of counselling will be able to pacify them because 
once they step out of their cell, they know there is no coming back and they 
will be gone forever.

But those who feel the most pain are their families. I do not dare to imagine 
how they would feel as they wait outside to collect the cold and lifeless body 
of their love ones.

If tomorrow is my last night

For me, if tomorrow is my last night, I too will have no choice. But I am ready 
to face the fact. After all, I was the one who made a mistake, and I have repented.

Would I be frightened? I really don't know. But I think I may not be 
because I am beginning to be familiar with how it feels to face death - don't 
forget that in this short 4 years, I have brushed death many times.

Indeed, I have "died" a few times before. In 2007, when I was caught, and 
discovering Buddhism has allowed me to be "reborned". In 2009, when I was 
sentenced to death, and my lawyer helped me to appeal against my sentence.

I will not request for my last dinner to be anything sumptuous. I think I will 
follow my regular routine of waking up in the morning to chant my Buddhist 
scripts and meditate, followed by my vegetarian breakfast until night falls, put 
on the best clothes which my sister has bought for me, say goodbye to the 
rest of the inmates, and finally kowtow to the Goddess to show my appreciation 
and thanks.

But I cannot truly express my feelings as I really don't know how I will feel 
as I walk towards the noose. I guess no one will really know.

My greatest fortune

I have been through stages where I felt lost, ignorant and was suffering but 
because of my practice of Buddhism, it has allowed me to free myself.

I am also grateful that many members of public are willing to forgive me. Being 
able to live until today is my greatest fortune.

I think my family has already accepted me for what I did, and also accepted 
whatever outcome it may be. They take comfort in the fact that I have turned 
over a new leaf, and that I have continued reading and practicing Buddhism.

My ordeal has also improved the relationship among those in my family, especially 
my siblings. But I still worry sometimes that my mother will come to know that 
I am no longer around.

I would like to thank all of you once again. I will not be able to share my story without 
your help. I shall pray for you, and wish you good health and happiness.


July 10, 2011

YONG VUI KONG, a Sabahan, was sentenced in November 2009 to death for drug trafficking. He was 19. 
On April 4, Yong lost his final appeal against a mandatory death sentence. He will be executed soon 
unless he is granted clemency by Singapore's president.

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